Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly

Thought: Don't compare, live a life and be thankful

Aku melihat hidup orang lain begitu nikmat,
Ternyata ia hanya menutupi kekurangannya tanpa berkeluh kesah.
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Aku melihat hidup teman-temanku tak ada duka dan kepedihan, ternyata ia hanya pandai menutupi dengan mensyukuri.
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Aku melihat hidup saudaraku tenang tanpa ujian,
Ternyata ia begitu menikmati badai hujan dalam kehidupannya.
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Aku melihat hidup sahabatku begitu sempurna,
Ternyata ia hanya berbahagia menjadi apa adanya.
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Aku melihat hidup tetanggaku beruntung,
Ternyata ia selalu tunduk pada Allah untuk bergantung.
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Setiap hari aku belajar memahami setiap hidup orang yang aku temui..Ternyata aku yang kurang mensyukuri nikmatMu.
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Bahawa di belahan dunia lain masih ada yang belum seberuntung yang aku miliki saat ini…
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Dan satu hal yang aku ketahui, bahwa Allahu Rabbi tak pernah mengurangi ketetapanNya.Hanya aku
yang masih mengkufuri nikmat suratan Ilahi…
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Maka aku merasa tidak perlu iri hati dengan rezeki orang lain.. Mungkin aku tak tahu dimana rezekiku.Tapi rezekiku tahu dimana diriku.
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Amatlah keliru bila bertawakkal rezeki dimaknai dari hasil bekerja..Kerana bekerja itu adalah ibadah, sedang rezeki itu urusan-Nya..
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Manusia membanting tulang, demi angka simpanan gaji, yang mungkin esok akan ditinggal mati.. Mereka lupa bahwa hakikat rezeki bukan apa yang tertulis dalam angka, tapi apa yang telah dinikmatinya..
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Rezeki tak selalu terletak pada pekerjaan kita, Allah menaruh sekehendak-Nya.
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Halalnya saja dihisab..dan haramnya diadzab.Maka, aku tidak boleh merasa iri pada rezeki orang lain.. Bila aku iri pada rezeki orang, sudah seharusnya juga iri pada takdir kematiannya…. Astaghfirullah…
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#selfreminder


I found this long reminder post on Irine nadia facebook. 

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Please please don't ever lived most of your life by comparing yourself to others. Because the truth is, comparisons are always unfair. People's are different and unique. We each have our own gifts, talents and 'rizqi' that Allah already given to us.

Remember that nobody is perfect. Because nowaday, we live in a society that give perfectionist always be their number one perriority. For instance, I always read comments on instagram picture, you-know-insta-famous. There were huge comments saying like feeling insecure with their beauty, why cant they be pretty like em'. Why would you feels insecure with your own look my dear?? she's beautiful, you are beautiful, and everybody is beautiful in and out.

Remeber, don't compare, live a life and be thankful :)

Getting fits

Assalamualaikum loveliess!



It's already April means I still have 9 month to achieve one of my 2017 resolutions. It's to lose my weight and getting fits!. For me, I still have a long and challeging weight lose journey that I can never see the end.

To be honest, I realised that I never once go exercise or jogg without having a partner. That's a main reason why I decided to join tbl (read it in my previous post) which is I fully dedicated my evening that suppose-to-be-my-napping-time to go out and exercise with my partner.

I slowly put my interest to join any UMP's running event.  It wasnt an easy step for beginner of course. It's soo challenge that requires a fitness and preparation. At my first event as I remember, I can only jogg for 5 minutes to 10 minutes then semput la pulaa thehehehe . But the real feeling when you reach your finish line was soo damn good. To be honest, I feels proud of myself eventho I'm the last one who reached the end point hahahahahahaha

Here's some tips I can share for you guys, for beginner. It doesnt mean that I'm now good in running. I'm not! but believe me these tips actually work for me :P

1) Set your goals and do pre-training

Because goals give you target to finish what you do. And pre-training helps you to gain your stamina and mental and physically prepared.. nahhh even you dont have a time to do it everyday just save your 2 to3 days in a week to train. Do a lots of cardio's. Jogging for instance.

2) Run with your bestfriend/ boyfriend / girlfriend etc

hahahaha actually this is work for me. This is like moral support for me. I'm lucky because my darls always give their support for me. They shouted "come on nana you can do it" and even waited for me to finish my run.

3) Choose a suitable suits and shoes

This is depends. For every events actually they provides you with short sleeve T shirt. For me, a girl who wearing a hijab of course need to choose the right materials. For inner Tshirt, make sure to choose thick materials, and wear hijab that give you most comfort. Bawal material is the best kot :) and choose the right and comfortable running shoes okay dear. Try to be minimal so that you can run at ease.

4) If you cant run, walk faster

Yes, like I said I can't run continuosly like in 30 minutes non-stop ( how I wish) but I couldnt mybe for now. It's okay my dear, run and if you couldnt then take a huge breath (not break lol) and keep walk in faster ways. My friends taugh me how to do a right breathing. Its like you have to take a deep breath then breath out in 2 short breath. camtu laa tak pandai explain sobsob mybe I should do a short videos later.

My darls, missing Dhia

Till next time!

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What puberty did to me

From this single sweet-innocent-lovely-lady look  (boo me if you want :')).........................................................

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Into this mak mak look :') .............................................................................................................................................................

When I say he's clingy boy, I really mean it lol

Well, forgot to mention, I'm not a mother okay. He's Adam, my nephew but he's really clingy to me. Stranger must tell he's my kid because we both much look alike. But the reality is I'm not married yet HAHAHAHA lol


Anyway, turning over a new leaf is never too late. I decided to start a new healthy lifestyle. I realised I need to get fit and healthy. Btw, its also my resolution in 2017 hakhak ceh konon. But seriously, I need to getting back in shape. I used to wear in size M, dulu and now I'm in XL and XXL size.



So nono  let's kick some exercise and hit gym regularly okay #prayfornono #nonowantogetmarried

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My Sweet Revenge- Rounders games

A girl never give up


This is a story of a girl who never give up and she's always want to show of her determination after setbacks.

Last semester, I joined one university program, named as The Biggest Loser. Of course this is about weight loss, exercise in group and food control. Everything went well I guess, and I met a lots of good friends. They were kind and soft spoken but not this one guys. He's someone like a  assistant coach. He's really annoying I tell ya. Ohh lets me call him Mr. R.  He's someone like you always want to badmouth about him hahaha. He's always tell me ( tapi lebih pada dia sound tiba tiba la). Something like he wants us to control my food, pernah cakap "berat gila ko ni", and he always condemned us. I was ok lah terima nasihat if he talk nicely but he didnt..

Okay lets forget about it. This is my real stories.

Last weekend, we join camp for 3 days 2 night at Savanna Hills, Ulu Tiram. I wont write all the activities here (mybe next post sebab camp best gila kot) coz of course it will be a really-really long stories. What I want to write in here is my Rounders Games which is it already be my sweet-revenge-games ever in my life.

If you know what Rounders Game is a game similar to handball I guess. 2 teams in a games and the aim is to score the most rounders. One team bats while the other team fields and bowls. something like that lah. The point is this is my first time I playing this kind of games. I never played before.

So the first round, my team played well. yang tukang lari semua mula2 yang jenis kurus kurus. My turn pula and omg I'm so damn nervous. Waktu tu memang SENGAJA pilih jadi bater yang last because that time yang baling bola tu Mr. R. SENGAJA sebab I esperately want to show him something. I want to show him my determination of winning. I want to pay him a revenge to be honest, for calling me "fat" hehehe. I failed at first hit, and he started to provoked me. At second time, he said to me to better look at him seriously. I just say "shut up la", then he throw the ball  and like a magic I hit the ball.........whattttt the heckkkkkk, guyssy I HIT the balllll, I did HIT THE BALL....then, I was running really really fast to my first check point, After that I run to Second checkpoint, Third checkpoint and I saved till the last checkpoint. What I remember I run really fast (like really fast) and focus on my cone. I run like that day was my last day in this world and I run until last drop of my breath.#whatanimagination .

I was soo happy so as my team and the others team. They give me a really loud cheer even my coach apploused soo hard for me. I was the first girl or the fat girl who win the last round. I just give my sweetest smile to Mr. R that I could't give to anybody.. lol..

So the point here is never give up in your life or in anything that you want to achieve in your life. yes, life likes to test our strenght. Sometimes unjust and insane. But in spite of all its challenges, life's actually really amazing. It depends on how we design it.  Please ignore negative peoples or instead help them change into positive one. Inshaallah I will help to change Mr. R. I believe that Allah created us for some reason. We all specials and beautiful. We just need to find the inner of yourself. Dont give up okay. :)


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Wednesday Evening

We had an amaaazing wednesday evening of......doing nothing. We always have to rush here, rush there to classes and laboratory and since we all not even in same faculty and hostel we stayed so we planned to take a one day break hahaha, we just want a day to hang out together but still we end up in our university lake and garden.

Its so nice to see everyone after a month of semester break. To be honest, we've each been already separated. Me and Nad separated and started to follow the different path and classes since we already in semester 4 eventhough we're in same faculty but I'm in manufacturing engineering and nad in mechatronic engineering. We have a lots of different subjects to be taken.  Ahh made me realised how time really flies.

Literally doing nothing, we just feed the fish and talk to them

Gossiping and taking a lots of pictures hahaha

My phone is filled a lots of selfie and wefie of them because we have this thing where we check into each other and sent a "what are you doing now" picture of ourselves to show the rest. Thanks to Facebook and Whatsapp! hehe


Guys! In hope that our times in here will keep you a good memories of growing up. lets make a new happy memories in here and lets graduated together #Roadtobachelor

Random : The One Whos Keep Me Up

I wanted to post this when I actually need to prepared for my first paper for this third semester on next Thursday hahaaha but never mind, I need to post it.

Starting the December month with hectic week and schedule. But I m thankful. This is just a quick reflection,another thing I am thankful for 2016 is that despite all ups and down, happiness and tears, I have a bunch people who never fail to pick me up and be my side during the bad and good time, through life's joys and challenge until the hurdle is passed.

Photos of me and girls on Dhia's birthday.

Yes, it's her! My never end, most favourite person, Najuwa. I realize that there are people who might want to see you fall, but this one, not! She's a definition of those who brings you up when you’re down. Alhamdulillah. I love you wa, sincerely. Bestfriend forever.  

And my family has always been my safe harbour that I can forever lean on; My parents and siblings. These people, I’ll forever be grateful for.

Though I foresee 2017 will be the blast year for me, my family and friends. And may be another year will be the year that filled the success plans for me. Oh I hoping to  accidentally or not-meet- the mr. right- for me hew hew hew.

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Random: Important to check your car before travel

Since this is just a short post, it is like a reminder for myself. I do forget a lot remember lol. please please always to check your car conditions especially when you need to travel in a long distance ( in my case Kuantan-Selangor-Kuantan ). 

Last night, I didnt know my battery already had a problem. I mean I already changed my battery like a year before. So it is impossible to change to a new one, isnt? luckily, my car broke down when I'm not driving on it, I mean someone borrow my car, then he got stuck at the middle of nowhere. far from ump, poor him bhahahaha. Feeling kesian tapi lawak sebab we're going to there, rescuing him, but we got stuck as well. Then my roomate, Sue called her man alhamdulillah everthings settle. #simptomforeveralone #ineedtogetaboyfriend 

This post is dedicated for us, as a woman, we must know at least a basic about car. Before travel, make sure to check under the car to see the obvious leaks. My car leaks of radiator, at first I didnt realised it until im at petrol station, when I saw there like a lot of fluid under my car. sobsob. Then please check your oil, coolant, check the brakes, lamp, tyres girls. 

Last but not least, please ensure that inside your car have all the emergency equipment and tools. You know like flashlight, jumper, screwdrivers, repair kit etc oh and spare tyre incase something happened with your tyre. Oh we have to know alittle knowledge of how to change a tyres at least. We cant even predect what will happens in future. So better to prevent than cure.  

Please dont be like me. lol

Random: Why blog is important for me

My first draft in on 2011 if I'm not mistaken. That time I already followed Irine Nadia, Fatin Liyana, Hanis Zalikha, Vivvy Yusof that all pretty famous nowaday haha heii I know half of their life stories no kidding. What I love being blogged is I can write anything in my own style ( even my post in a year can count), you know that I'm not a writer, I'm engineer and student but I write almost everything in here. My up and down of my life that I can write, I write in here. My break-up post pun ado lol. 

I wish that I don't stop writing. This is the only way to remember and cherish again my memories. Sometimes I forget everything, yes I easily to forget my memories. My way is to see the future, not back. So this is the reason why blog is soo soo important for me. I wish when I'm married, he my-future-husband know my life stories before. I know I will not sharing my stories by telling him face to face but if he read, I really love it bhahahahha motipp??. And I wish in future, my kids can read their mama old stories and mybe they can continue to write their memories in here, in my blog ngeee....

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Happy Holiday!

Assalamualaikum

Finished my last paper today so yeayyy marks the end of my first year studying here. oh and hi second year, i guess you should treat me better than this year perhaps. These final paper are like killin' me, seriously.  Flashback my first year i'm in  here, i would like to say congratulation to myself, the journey is really long and tough. studying in engineering not easy as you think, never fail to faced the huge amount of stress from assignment, hearing, never ending presentations, calculation, exam, exam and exam. fuhh baru sem pertama..lols  but i think everybody will faced the same problems right, so just face it. what a life without a tears hehehe..

How is your Ramadhan so far? mine was 50 50.  I'm so sleepy right now, after a long and exhausted day, after my last paper, I have to pack a whole my things because we need to check out from hostel like immediately and packing is not fun at all hahaha. Ive to clean like everything and i dont know how to bring my things back to kl. redah je la ye nono... 

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