WRITE SO YOU WILL NEVER FORGET

I’m staring at the blank box to pour my words in and that beautiful feeling is coming back the blogger in me is alive again! I haven’t blogged for almost few months guys… !It’s been a crazy period, but let’s face it – no excuses, Nono, you were just slacking off!

But not today guys… not today, my friends… because today was a really really good day that I just want to remember. I told my best friends that I really miss blogging and so many good moments happen everyday that if I don’t write them down like I diligently did before, they’re all going to fade in forgotten memory land. So I don’t want to let that happen. No matter how tired I feel at the end of every night, with long days at work and beautiful yet tiring nights with the nephew.

I remember how I cherish my memories back when I read my blog, even I keep my old picture inside the draft when almost everything went missing in my folder. My old laptop is broken and I forgot to backup and save everything inside the disk gosh yes I know lame.

There were a times that I hustle too much. I don't really rest after working from 9 am to 5 pm. I kept overthinking about my work. I still have one semester left when all my girl gang already finished. I have many words to write, but I couldn't. My almost bed-time I read history (new interest so far) and novel. Even worst, I couldn't sleep until the time reached 3 am.  

Till next time, 

bye

Being grateful

Assalamualaikum

Looks what topic that eager me to write here instead of doing calculus and preparing an important presentation due on tomorrow!!!

I found out this topic interesting juga (wehh hang takda modal lain). the question is what's like to be single ? when your bestfriend already married? forever aloneeeeeee

kahkahkah


This kind of situation, I have faced it. I mean it. I'm 25 will turn to 26 inshaallah soon, people around me, with their good intentions, I'm sure, will always be like " inshaallah, soon, you're next who get married", my paklong, maklong even some of my kakak2 always ask me to find my life partner aka husband. They said I should be worried at least, ok I admit it, well sometimes but my parents didn't bother about it. My mom said that we are all blessed with different thing. Some people are blessed with early marriages, some blessed with kids and happy family. Some people blessed with amazing careers. Some people blessed with health. Some people blessed with wealth.
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The point is, we are all blessed with different things.You know, Allah is very very fair. Allah hasnt given you a husband but I blessed with others that I always remind myself to always feel grateful at least.

You know, I'm already blessed with so many people that are in my life right now, my family and my friends then why should I wasted my time and energy complaining about something that I dont have in my life, when I already have these amazing people in my life.

So if you're going through something difficult right now or you've been waiting for something to happen or have been waiting for someone for a while and you don't know if it's coming anytime soon.  Why don't we flip the lens and focus on towards what we already have instead on focusing on something that we don't have.

Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly

Thought: Don't compare, live a life and be thankful

Aku melihat hidup orang lain begitu nikmat,
Ternyata ia hanya menutupi kekurangannya tanpa berkeluh kesah.
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Aku melihat hidup teman-temanku tak ada duka dan kepedihan, ternyata ia hanya pandai menutupi dengan mensyukuri.
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Aku melihat hidup saudaraku tenang tanpa ujian,
Ternyata ia begitu menikmati badai hujan dalam kehidupannya.
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Aku melihat hidup sahabatku begitu sempurna,
Ternyata ia hanya berbahagia menjadi apa adanya.
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Aku melihat hidup tetanggaku beruntung,
Ternyata ia selalu tunduk pada Allah untuk bergantung.
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Setiap hari aku belajar memahami setiap hidup orang yang aku temui..Ternyata aku yang kurang mensyukuri nikmatMu.
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Bahawa di belahan dunia lain masih ada yang belum seberuntung yang aku miliki saat ini…
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Dan satu hal yang aku ketahui, bahwa Allahu Rabbi tak pernah mengurangi ketetapanNya.Hanya aku
yang masih mengkufuri nikmat suratan Ilahi…
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Maka aku merasa tidak perlu iri hati dengan rezeki orang lain.. Mungkin aku tak tahu dimana rezekiku.Tapi rezekiku tahu dimana diriku.
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Amatlah keliru bila bertawakkal rezeki dimaknai dari hasil bekerja..Kerana bekerja itu adalah ibadah, sedang rezeki itu urusan-Nya..
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Manusia membanting tulang, demi angka simpanan gaji, yang mungkin esok akan ditinggal mati.. Mereka lupa bahwa hakikat rezeki bukan apa yang tertulis dalam angka, tapi apa yang telah dinikmatinya..
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Rezeki tak selalu terletak pada pekerjaan kita, Allah menaruh sekehendak-Nya.
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Halalnya saja dihisab..dan haramnya diadzab.Maka, aku tidak boleh merasa iri pada rezeki orang lain.. Bila aku iri pada rezeki orang, sudah seharusnya juga iri pada takdir kematiannya…. Astaghfirullah…
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#selfreminder


I found this long reminder post on Irine nadia facebook. 

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Please please don't ever lived most of your life by comparing yourself to others. Because the truth is, comparisons are always unfair. People's are different and unique. We each have our own gifts, talents and 'rizqi' that Allah already given to us.

Remember that nobody is perfect. Because nowaday, we live in a society that give perfectionist always be their number one perriority. For instance, I always read comments on instagram picture, you-know-insta-famous. There were huge comments saying like feeling insecure with their beauty, why cant they be pretty like em'. Why would you feels insecure with your own look my dear?? she's beautiful, you are beautiful, and everybody is beautiful in and out.

Remeber, don't compare, live a life and be thankful :)

Faith : Ramadhan Checklist

Assalamualaikum

I was thinking that i should write this post inspired by vivvy post thank you vivvy since yeahh mybe i could re check my checklist that i made back someday and know either my aim's already achieved or mybe needs more improvement hehehe. i believed ramadhan as a month of purification and calmness, everybody want to do a good deeds, fix everythings like all the wrongdoing etc and want to feel more closer to Allah.


So here my ramadhan checklist.

• Pray on time. (my weakness is on zuhur and asar because of tons of work. i know im wrong sobs)

• Refrain from talking and hearing a bad things, o less gossiping. Focus on good deeds. Be kind to everyone.

• Khatam al-Quran. (by end of Ramadhan i hope i can khatam al-Quran. Amin)

• Do lots of sedekah and dua'. i read that dua' can be more mustajab on ramadhan month. 

•  Tarawikh prayers on every night. insyaallah. this years i think more calm and free than previous year which is i stay more nights at offices o doing night shifs and when im home i felt super tired and just sleep all day.

• Spent more time with my mom and dad, cook iftar n sahur more etc 

Honest to say, I'm more excited this year because im sooooo happpyyyy that i get to celebrated ramadhan more in proper ways, i means not stuck in tons of work i-dont-know-how-to-explain..ok guys lets no waste this ramadhan, oh okay i talk to myself. 

May we have strength, patience and come out of this month with increased iman and improved versions of ourselves. Amin!

Thank you for reading xoxo

Faith: Dua' On Finding Your Soul Mate

"O God! Please grant me The One,

Who will be the garment for my soul,

Who will satisfy half of my deen and in doing so make me whole.

Make him righteous and on your path

In all he'll do and say

And sprinkle water on me at Fajr

Reminding me to pray

May he earn from halal sources

And spend within his mearns

May he seek God's guidance always

To fulfill all his dreams.

May he always refer to Qur'an

and the Sunnah as his moral guide

May he thank and appreciate God

May he be conscious of his anger

and often fast and pray

Be charitable and sensitive

In every possible way

May he honor and protect me

And guide me in this life

And please God! Make me worthy

to be his loving wife

And finally, O God!

Make him abundant in love and laughter

In taqwa and sincerity

In striving for the hereafter!" 

-via tumbler.