I'M BACK

Probably the last time I enjoyed myself. can't remember lol . Taken in last year, 2018.

The no update here for almost a year. goshh, girl, danggg...I've been hiatus uh-oh because of my study, internship and working as a partimer eventhough I've missed seeing this big white white blank box on my screen right now. I don't know how to fit my time between blogging, Instagram and twitter update.

Life update,

Right now I'm working part-time as researcher assistant. I'm soo thankful for being in an awesome team, which help me a lot. I'm also done with my 3 month Intership. And I still have one semester left for my study, seriously I can't wait to finish everything.

Work and study can be soo stressful. Busier, more hectic and whole more chaotic. I can't remember the last time I enjoyed myself hahahaha but hey still, Alhamdulillah for this life.

Time Capsule, again

Hi!

Yeahhh I need to admit that the Tube Time Capsule, Sg. Lembing was one of my favourite place if I want to calm myself.  Since this is the nearest, and this place has no hustle, suitable for who loves peace and calmness like meh but little bit scary because the tube surround with jungle, so don't ever go alone hahaha

I asked Diana to company me because yeah she's really easygoing, tak kuat merungut and she's matured enough to handle the unplanned plan. and of corse because  I love her. Sesuai sangat sebab tengah jiwa kacau lol. One capsule that time RM 114/ night only if I'm not mistaken, full package inc free bbq jiran depan. lol.

We arrived at 4.00pm , check in and after that we mingle around the village, jambatan gantung, buy lots of food and maggi for dinner. Nothing interesting because that time hujan. So we have to cancel our plan to rent bycle and sightseeing around the village.

That night, we just go out to have our dinner then this one group asked us to join their bbq. Bbq okay, everythingsss looks tempting. ok tiber lupa pasal maggi. lol. Thank youuu stranger for being kind o us, offer the damn delicious bbq.

Wakeup like this, lol

The famous and historic Sg Lembing bridges

Actually, need to drive around 15 minutes to arrived to Sg. Pandan Waterfall

We hiked Caras cave, Sg. Lembing but I loss the pictures and video, tsk tsk.. nevermind. I've fun to set myself free, sometimes. with someone that I love. This semester will be the last semester for diana. I guess I will miss her, a lot. 

Till next time.

Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly

Thought: Don't compare, live a life and be thankful

Aku melihat hidup orang lain begitu nikmat,
Ternyata ia hanya menutupi kekurangannya tanpa berkeluh kesah.
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Aku melihat hidup teman-temanku tak ada duka dan kepedihan, ternyata ia hanya pandai menutupi dengan mensyukuri.
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Aku melihat hidup saudaraku tenang tanpa ujian,
Ternyata ia begitu menikmati badai hujan dalam kehidupannya.
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Aku melihat hidup sahabatku begitu sempurna,
Ternyata ia hanya berbahagia menjadi apa adanya.
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Aku melihat hidup tetanggaku beruntung,
Ternyata ia selalu tunduk pada Allah untuk bergantung.
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Setiap hari aku belajar memahami setiap hidup orang yang aku temui..Ternyata aku yang kurang mensyukuri nikmatMu.
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Bahawa di belahan dunia lain masih ada yang belum seberuntung yang aku miliki saat ini…
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Dan satu hal yang aku ketahui, bahwa Allahu Rabbi tak pernah mengurangi ketetapanNya.Hanya aku
yang masih mengkufuri nikmat suratan Ilahi…
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Maka aku merasa tidak perlu iri hati dengan rezeki orang lain.. Mungkin aku tak tahu dimana rezekiku.Tapi rezekiku tahu dimana diriku.
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Amatlah keliru bila bertawakkal rezeki dimaknai dari hasil bekerja..Kerana bekerja itu adalah ibadah, sedang rezeki itu urusan-Nya..
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Manusia membanting tulang, demi angka simpanan gaji, yang mungkin esok akan ditinggal mati.. Mereka lupa bahwa hakikat rezeki bukan apa yang tertulis dalam angka, tapi apa yang telah dinikmatinya..
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Rezeki tak selalu terletak pada pekerjaan kita, Allah menaruh sekehendak-Nya.
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Halalnya saja dihisab..dan haramnya diadzab.Maka, aku tidak boleh merasa iri pada rezeki orang lain.. Bila aku iri pada rezeki orang, sudah seharusnya juga iri pada takdir kematiannya…. Astaghfirullah…
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#selfreminder


I found this long reminder post on Irine nadia facebook. 

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Please please don't ever lived most of your life by comparing yourself to others. Because the truth is, comparisons are always unfair. People's are different and unique. We each have our own gifts, talents and 'rizqi' that Allah already given to us.

Remember that nobody is perfect. Because nowaday, we live in a society that give perfectionist always be their number one perriority. For instance, I always read comments on instagram picture, you-know-insta-famous. There were huge comments saying like feeling insecure with their beauty, why cant they be pretty like em'. Why would you feels insecure with your own look my dear?? she's beautiful, you are beautiful, and everybody is beautiful in and out.

Remeber, don't compare, live a life and be thankful :)