I'M BACK

Probably the last time I enjoyed myself. can't remember lol . Taken in last year, 2018.

The no update here for almost a year. goshh, girl, danggg...I've been hiatus uh-oh because of my study, internship and working as a partimer eventhough I've missed seeing this big white white blank box on my screen right now. I don't know how to fit my time between blogging, Instagram and twitter update.

Life update,

Right now I'm working part-time as researcher assistant. I'm soo thankful for being in an awesome team, which help me a lot. I'm also done with my 3 month Intership. And I still have one semester left for my study, seriously I can't wait to finish everything.

Work and study can be soo stressful. Busier, more hectic and whole more chaotic. I can't remember the last time I enjoyed myself hahahaha but hey still, Alhamdulillah for this life.

Beach and Bestfriend I

This is how we spent our saturday afternoon, with a a good company of friends, cozy and warm ambient, beach views and with  our self-made of bbq foods. oh not forget with our lots of laughter and interestingly random questions and funny memories since the first time we've meet in university. It was really chilled out and relaxed afternoon. We even had our photoshoot session and this will be remembered since this is our last years to be together-ed. :'(.

We even baked cheese kut and cheese cake for nadirah's belated birthday and upcoming Atiqah's birthday. They shared the same month but very different personalities. Atiq is more to boy-ish style and personalities but suprisingly she agreed to wear shawl for the photoshoot (she hated it guys, she only wear bawal all times hahahaha ).

My degree's sweetheart

Birthday cake for all

Atiq wear shawl hiks

Our main course, and bbq but the man do the bbq hihihi

I hope this friendship remains forever



Till next time,
Love 

Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly