Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly

Random : The One Whos Keep Me Up

I wanted to post this when I actually need to prepared for my first paper for this third semester on next Thursday hahaaha but never mind, I need to post it.

Starting the December month with hectic week and schedule. But I m thankful. This is just a quick reflection,another thing I am thankful for 2016 is that despite all ups and down, happiness and tears, I have a bunch people who never fail to pick me up and be my side during the bad and good time, through life's joys and challenge until the hurdle is passed.

Photos of me and girls on Dhia's birthday.

Yes, it's her! My never end, most favourite person, Najuwa. I realize that there are people who might want to see you fall, but this one, not! She's a definition of those who brings you up when you’re down. Alhamdulillah. I love you wa, sincerely. Bestfriend forever.  

And my family has always been my safe harbour that I can forever lean on; My parents and siblings. These people, I’ll forever be grateful for.

Though I foresee 2017 will be the blast year for me, my family and friends. And may be another year will be the year that filled the success plans for me. Oh I hoping to  accidentally or not-meet- the mr. right- for me hew hew hew.

Thank you for reading!

Faith : Ramadhan Checklist

Assalamualaikum

I was thinking that i should write this post inspired by vivvy post thank you vivvy since yeahh mybe i could re check my checklist that i made back someday and know either my aim's already achieved or mybe needs more improvement hehehe. i believed ramadhan as a month of purification and calmness, everybody want to do a good deeds, fix everythings like all the wrongdoing etc and want to feel more closer to Allah.


So here my ramadhan checklist.

• Pray on time. (my weakness is on zuhur and asar because of tons of work. i know im wrong sobs)

• Refrain from talking and hearing a bad things, o less gossiping. Focus on good deeds. Be kind to everyone.

• Khatam al-Quran. (by end of Ramadhan i hope i can khatam al-Quran. Amin)

• Do lots of sedekah and dua'. i read that dua' can be more mustajab on ramadhan month. 

•  Tarawikh prayers on every night. insyaallah. this years i think more calm and free than previous year which is i stay more nights at offices o doing night shifs and when im home i felt super tired and just sleep all day.

• Spent more time with my mom and dad, cook iftar n sahur more etc 

Honest to say, I'm more excited this year because im sooooo happpyyyy that i get to celebrated ramadhan more in proper ways, i means not stuck in tons of work i-dont-know-how-to-explain..ok guys lets no waste this ramadhan, oh okay i talk to myself. 

May we have strength, patience and come out of this month with increased iman and improved versions of ourselves. Amin!

Thank you for reading xoxo

Faith: Dua' On Finding Your Soul Mate

"O God! Please grant me The One,

Who will be the garment for my soul,

Who will satisfy half of my deen and in doing so make me whole.

Make him righteous and on your path

In all he'll do and say

And sprinkle water on me at Fajr

Reminding me to pray

May he earn from halal sources

And spend within his mearns

May he seek God's guidance always

To fulfill all his dreams.

May he always refer to Qur'an

and the Sunnah as his moral guide

May he thank and appreciate God

May he be conscious of his anger

and often fast and pray

Be charitable and sensitive

In every possible way

May he honor and protect me

And guide me in this life

And please God! Make me worthy

to be his loving wife

And finally, O God!

Make him abundant in love and laughter

In taqwa and sincerity

In striving for the hereafter!" 

-via tumbler.

Ramadan Kareem!

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone, It's Ramadhan again! The month of full of magical blessing, the month of purifying our body and soul. Alhamdulillah how great it is to be alive to see and experience yet another.

What's your goal this month? Me, I am planning to khatam Al-Quran by the end of month and join qiamullail insyaallah. let's join with me nak tak? I hope we'll be able to complete it aminn. Besides now I'm practising to pray in earlier times ( my weakness) and make a lots of doa. 

May this Ramadhan makes us a better Muslim than we ever were before.

Faith: Allah knows better

O Allah, You know and I know not, and You are the Knower of the unseen.

O Allah, if You know that this matter is good for me in my religion and in my life and for my welfare in the life to come, then ordain it for me and make it easy for me.

Then bless me in it. May Allah protect my heart. Ameen.