Eid mubarak

Assalamualaikum~


Huuhhhh... It has been a while since i last blogged. 😃

I tried blogging more often, but somehow i couldn't get the time to sit and type away relaxedly, I always had something and somewhere to go hahahaha. A holy month, Ramadhan has gone, Now we still in early eid month, so I want to wish everybody (obviosly who read this) a happy eid mubarak!. How's your raya day?

I'm soo happy as I spent most of my raya day with my family relatives and friends. My family come to travel abroad a lot this year and everyone has also been busy doing different things that we couldn't meet them often even for a short family meeting. So, I think this hari raya is the perfect time that we could pay a visit to the relatives. Because sometimes we are too busy with work and other things that we forget what and who most matters in our life. That's why, I felt blessed to have this time away with family together. 

Oh not to forget, the last minute of planning to visit mila and her daughter, naura. guess time really flies too fast that we can't even believe that mila already had a baby daughter. *criesss

Hi baby naura, autie nana here ☺ 

Thank you for reading!

Beautiful soul, SheaRasol

Assalamualaikum, as I writing this, if you're a blogger or had following her at social media/instagram must be know that our dear, Farah Syahirah Binti Rasol or known as Shearasol has passed away. She die at a very young age, and taken on the best day of week and in the holy month of Ramadhan. To Allah we belong and to Him we should return.

I met her only once. She was kind person, she smile a lot even to strangers. I get excited because I was one of mybe one of her million true fans. She's my girl crush. I've been followed her since my first draft back on 2011. She honestly has inspired me a lot. The way she style, the way she write and think suddenly becomes more 'personal' to me.  She had spread all the love and positivity in her blog and her attitude even her kind and beautiful soul can be felt by a total stranger like me to feel sad by her absence. She's an example of someone who live to the fullest before. She's really positive even when she diagnosed with cancer, she take it in more you know like a test, and she think the cancer show how Allah love her so much.


Shearasol, May Allah grant you the highest level of heaven. I will always miss you, your personality, your big and beautiful smile. Everyone loves you. And Allah love you so much more. Alfatihah

"Ya Allah, ampunilah dia dan kasihinilah dia & sejahterakanlah serta ampunilah dosa kesalahan dia dan muliakanlah kedatangannya dan luaskan lah tempat masuk (kuburnya) dan bersihkanlah dia dari dosa dan sebagaimana kain putih yang bersih dari segala kotoran

P/s : I guess there's no myamethys and sheawanderlust anymore. sobs

Thought : Unrequited Love

Sometimes you find yourself trying to let go of something
But it's like you have been swimming in the ocean
For a very very long time
And you feel like you belong there
You are one with the waves
The warmth of the water
And your body moves in sync with the ocean
And you swim around just trying to stay afloat
Then you get tired and you start to drown
And you swim back to land

When you get there you just feel so heavy
Because you lost touch with gravity for so long
And you collapse on the beach
As you try to find balance again
And then your feet finds gravity
You stand up and you look at the horizon one last time

And just know that no matter how beautiful the sea was
And how good it made you feel it was never yours for you to keep
And someday's you will miss it, you know
And you feel yourself moving with the waves
And you dream of diving in
Then you realize your feet was meant for land
And not cut out for the ocean
Maybe you're meant to climb trees
Or hike hills or just run really fast

Letting go is not easy
There is nothing quite like swimming in the ocean
Just like how it's natural for your feet to find gravity
It's natural for you to let go
And find your true purpose in life again
The sea is the sea
And you are just you

I have to let go
But sometimes I find myself waking up at the beach again.

Only when I look into your eyes
My senses ignite 
I feel life
I was waiting for an answer
Like a feather falling
From the sky

You don't want to belong to me
Cause freedom feels better
Than I could give
You love inadequetely
But you steal hearts like mine

Perfectly

Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be my unrequited love
Why can't our love be
Possible

For as long as I can remember
Like oil and water we collide
But you don't seem to want forever
This adventure was only real to my eyes

You don't want to listen to me
Cause freedom sounds better
Than I can sing
You love inadequetely
You steal hearts like mine perfectly